12 Pounds!

Carter is 12 pounds already! Big boy! He'll be 10 weeks old tomorrow. Time flies! He is actually starting to sleep for longer periods of time now - yay for MOM! And his smiles & coos are really adorable. I still haven't figured out how to get a pic on this blog thing so I'll have to share his photos in the yahoo groups I'm in.

Holidays are approaching quicker than I am ready for. Simplifying this year. I wrote more about that in my other blog http://jenswellness.blogspot.com/ so if you want to read about that you can. The big one is that we're only doing cake & ice cream for Spencer's 5 year Birthday party next Sunday. I can't believe he's going to be 5 already. Such a big boy. He's no longer anywhere near a baby. Next fall he'll be in kindergarten.

My middle child, Parker - I worry he'll feel left out sometimes. I hear about the middle child all of the time. Heck, I was one of several middle children. I dealt with it. I was the youngest of the older & the oldest of the younger. Being the 4th child of 6 & the youngest girl was not easy. I kind of felt like a slave most of the time. I'm past that now. I make sure to spend one on one time with Parker whenever I can. He is so special to me, as all 3 of my boys are!

I'm starting Christmas shopping tonight! There is a special fundraising event at the local Mall & I purchased a ticket. There are specials, giveaways, free samples, yadda yadda. . . It will be nice to get out - but you know, still have to finance it. We've acquired quite a few medical bills from the delivery of Carter. It's amazing the difference since the first 2 boys were born while Scott still had the school district insurance. Now he is employed by a private college & whoa! The coverage isn't anywhere near as good. I think we all tend to over indulge during the holidays anyway. The kids get so much stuff from everyone else - why do we feel the need to compete with that? This year we won't. They usually end up sticking to playing with one thing at a time anyway - heck, Carter won't care at all - what do you get for a baby again anyway? He has plenty of clothing. He doesn't need more baby toys. He will most likely sleep through a lot of the commotion anyway - such decisions!

Well, gotta run - I think I hear the little man.

I'm Scrapping Again!

I completed 2 pages so far with 2 more very close to completion! Yay for me!!! Still haven't had tons of time to scrap, but I'm using the good stuff as a personal challenge.

Still working on the organization thing. I'm also working on my clutter problem. I will keep improving.

Carter is 8 weeks old today. Wow, time flies! Yet it seems like he's been here forever. He's very adorable of course.

Our rental unit is for sale & we received an offer for the full amount today. Of course we're jumping on that. I hope all goes well & we unload it ASAP. It's just too much to deal with as Scott's job consumes so much of his time & I won't even go down the list of everything consuming my time right now.

I have been back to work for the past 3 weeks already. That is going OK. We debated on whether I should take a more for sure position (right now I work for a nurse staffing agency & can be cancelled if not needed). When we looked at the inconvenience of me being scheduled to work the one available position which is 4 PM to 8 PM for 2 to 3 evenings a week or taking a part time position at a hospital which would require every other weekend & holidays of some sort - versus working for the agency when I want to & where I want to (unless I get cancelled) - we decided it would be better for me to stay doing what I'm doing. Another HUGE factor is the pay. If I'd take a position, it would mean about a $10 an hour pay cut. Easy decision when you look at that, right?

I am also faced with the decision about my Pampered Chef business. What do I want to do with it? I really slowed down several months ago because I chose to. I know that I could pick it back up again & get more shows booked. I have my first post baby show tomorrow night & so far there are 13 guests expected! That's pretty incredible & I will work it. I'm looking for some "sign" of what I'm supposed to do. I know, sounds silly. I just can't decide yet. And I really don't have to decide anything right now. I know that I can keep active with the things I have going.

I am getting wordy - go figure! I am going to leave it at that for now.

Jen B

Getting it together

I'm not keeping this up very well - sorry!
I have worked a couple of shifts. It's going fine. Work is actually satisfying. While I do miss my boys when I go to work, I need the time away. I also have the need to contribute to our family income. We need more income! It's kind of scary in a way. While I know we won't go bancrupt, we are living on a tight budget right now.

Do you ever feel like you're waiting for life to begin? Do you wait for such & such a thing to happen so that you can do something else? I hate feeling like this. I've pondered what to do with my life on & off. But you know what? My life is happening already. If we don't experience life to the fullest, before we know it, it has passed us by. Time is a non renewable resource. We do wake up with the same amount every day - but once it's gone, it's gone. I need to pull my head out of my hind end & get on with it.

I'm a Pampered Chef consultant. I've been one since 2001 & I've enjoyed it. I still do enjoy it to a certain extent. But there are also things about being my own boss that are not enjoyable. I don't like the part about having to get on the phone in the evening when I could be spending time with my family. I don't like having to deal with "issues" that come up with customer service. I don't like it when hosts don't invite many people & then end up having 2 people show up at their show that I've driven 45 minutes to get to all the while my family is at home - and maybe even with a sitter. However, I do enjoy putting on a good show. I do enjoy the income when my hosts follow through with my host coaching & people attend the show. I do enjoy teaching people how to cook with the tools & to make healthy choices. I do enjoy recognition when I have high sales on the team.

What it comes down to right now is money. I get paid well when I work a shift at the hospital or urgent care. I can be guaranteed to make over $120 when I work a shift as a nurse for 4 hours. Not the guarantee with doing a Pampered Chef show that in its entirety with host phone calls, driving, show time & closing comes to 4 hours. Sales jobs don't have guaranteed income when you're paid on commission only. And once I leave work as a nurse - I'm done. I don't have to follow up with phone calls or be accountable for anything. I punch out & I'm done.

PLUS, I'd rather be scrapping! Now there's another dilemma. I could pursue a scrapping business on my own. But again, don't want to pursue bookings in the evenings when I am not guaranteed wages.

I know, looks like I've kind of made up my mind. I just can't give this up. I need to make up my mind one way or the other. I can't linger or I'll stress myself out more. Yet, I can stay active with PC without pursuing a lot. I have a web site that I can get orders from. I have repeat hosts & customers who hold shows regularly. All I need is $200 in retail sales every 2 months to stay active. It's not at all difficult for me to do this.

OK, so now I've rambled on & on. Feel free to tell me what you think.

Days NOT to get out of bed - or wake up at all!

Yesterday -
Wee hours of the morning - I hear Parker (the 3 yo) crying. He has a leg cramp. Dad (dh) gets up to comfort him. Shortly, I hear, "Oh crap." from dh right beside my bed. He says, as he holds our sobbing 3 yo, "I think your glasses are underneath my foot." Nothing like that to wake me up! Sure enough, my frames were broken - beyond repair. (They must have gotten knocked off the bedside table.)

Now to some this might not be a huge deal. However, I hadn't worn my contacts in months & I had a day of shopping planned so I actually have something to wear for Carter's baptism on Sunday. I need my glasses to drive. This was not a good thing. So I got very little sleep the rest of the night.

Wake up - around 6 AM & Carter (the baby) had wet through his diaper & sleeper onto my bed. Thank God he's little & that he was wearing a Pampers vs the cheaper diapers. Oh well, I am not changing the sheets at 6AM for a spot of pee - it's a king sized bed & I should be able to catch a little more sleep after changing the boy. The other 2 boys wake up so it's not exactly dreamy time for Mom anymore - but I can try!

That didn't last long. DH left for work & the boys are LOUD & want me UP! I give in - I need to shower & have them to daycare, aka school, by 9 AM anyway.

I make them English muffins with PB&J on them & prepare for my shower. Nothing to wear that looks good - so I figure something out - still maternity jeans:( A tank top & button down shirt for easy access for the little man. That should be good.

The boys go downstairs to play & I take my shower. Once out - Spencer (almost 5) comes to me & says, while dressed in just his underwear, "Parker peed down the steps." WHAT???!! Sure enough, Parker let it go from the top of the basement stairs all the way down - including the wall. NOT something I wanted to deal with. He was standing there with nothing on! What is up with that? I didn't sign up for this one! He gets a little putch on the hind end & sent to his room to get dressed & think about what he did. I asked him, once he was in there, why he did it. He said, "Cuz you weren't wiff me." Not seeing the logic in that. But he's 3 - there probably is some code of 3 year olds that states, "If Mom is not wif me, I can pee down the steps." I must capture this manual & destroy it!

So I clean up the mess. Again, NOT what was on the agenda for this morning. I get myself & the kids ready & bring them to school. This is where we discover a cute little white dog standing outside the center's door. Now I know this kind of dog. It's the kind that looks like it would want to be cuddled & pet & loved & then when you go to pet it it turns psycho & rips a whole in your arm the size of Texas. So I don't let the kids get out of the van. I, with my calm demeanor & experience dealing with wild animals (aka, my kids), get out & approach the beast. He seems nice enough. I let him sniff my hand & then take a look at his tags. He's up to date at the vet - but no name or number or address. I decide it's safe enough to allow my children to come out to get into school. The dog wants to follow us in - but we don't let him. Once inside I tell the assistant director & she says, "Oh, don't go near that dog. We have brought him back to his home before & he just about tore our arms off." I must have the touch - or maybe it's the motherly hormones flowing because the dog really seemed to like me! I offer to lead it back home since it likes to follow me anyway. I get the 2 boys in their appropriate rooms & leave my baby in the Assistant director's care while I go out. The dog is gone. No job for me to do! So I go get the baby & procede out to my van. Then the dog is back! Go figure! So I lead it back to it's home next door. The owner didn't seem all too grateful. Funny how I saw her outside earlier & she didn't seem to be looking for her dog. Some people! Anyway - I get in my van & we head to my chiropractor's.

While driving on the highway I got in the left lane as there were some slower moving vehicles in the right lane going just under 65. This is a classic situation that I'm sure many have been in. I am leading a couple of cars & there is pretty steady traffic in the right lane. Then there is a little clearing in the right lane but the next vehicle in the right lane is obviously going slower than I am in the left. Even though someone is nearing my tail end, I am not about to get over in the right lane just to have to put on my brakes & slow way down. I'm going over the speed limit already & figure I'll get over once I pass the next vehicle. The car 2 behind me whips out of his lane (isn't it always a man?), attempts to catch up to me & just before he does, starts to take the exit & flips me off! I just laughed - & I know he saw me laughing so I'm sure that inflicted far more of a blow to his ego & road rage than if I had reciprocated. Just then - "It's a Great Day to Be Alive" comes on the radio. That just about says it!

I figure the day had to improve after that! Good thing I have a positive attitude.

Oh, by the way, I had a new pair of contacts to put in - & they worked quite well for the day. However, my glasses are not able to be fixed with Crazy glue like I was hoping. I do need to get my eyes checked, however, I was hoping to be able to put that off for a bit as my eyes tend to change after having a baby. We're also broke right now - so paying for my new glasses is not exactly in the budget. Oh well, more reason for me to get working!

Gotta go - the boys are loose again!

Jen

A LOT has happened

Wow! This could be a long one. MUCH has happened.

Carter is already 4 weeks old! Wow! He is growing quickly. I need to weigh him tomorrow to see just how much! I take so many pics of him it's almost pathetic - but hey, that's what digital cameras were made for, right? It takes many pics to get that perfect one you know?

I'm starting to get more sleep. That's a good thing. Carter kind of had his days & nights mixed up for a bit. I have been trying to remember to invert him daily to try to keep this straightened out. I might explain this more in my other blog as it's health related.

Not this past weekend, but the Sunday before, my 14 year old niece finally came forward about an awful tragedy that has been going on since January. A 6th grade teacher whom she had been counseled by has been having sex with her. She thought she was in love with him. He took advantage of her in the worst way imaginable. I won't go into too much detail. They have him though. He was arrested early last Monday morning. He had tried to dump evidence in his apartment dumpster but the police seized the dumpster in time to confiscate it. He had videos & pictures. What a sicko!

Since then, another young lady has come forward. He will go away for a long time. I know they have a certain heirarchy in prison - he'll get his one way or another. I am just sick about this. That poor girl's childhood has been torn from her. She'll never be the same again.

Have you been watching Oprah lately? She is doing some amazing things to bring child molesters to justice. She is awesome! She said something today that hits home. She said that we should never ignore those little feelings we get about people. There are times when we push our little fears aside as we don't want to offend someone. When someone makes us feel weird or uncomfortable by a way they touch us, touch our kids, look at us, look at our kids - we need to pay attention to this!

I just pray that God gives my niece the strength to make it through this & make something positive out of this awful life event.

Almost Three Weeks!

Carter will be 3 weeks old tomorrow. Wow! Time flies! He's so adorable. I just want to smooch him all of the time. OK, I know, this is gushy. I'm his MOM!

It's hard to believe that just 3 weeks ago I was still pregnant!!!! And I was so ready to have this little man! You know what's funny? I ran into someone who is 1 week overdue tonight when I went to Walmart. I would be 2 weeks overdue right now if I would still be pregnant. Wow! No way would I be able to handle that. I can only imagine how big he'd have been.

This week will be when Carter gets his first bottle of breastmilk from Dad. That will be awesome for me as that means that sometime soon I can sleep through the first feeding of the night. Don't know how well I'll handle that, however, as he doesn't seem to eat much during the night the way it is. I end up so full in the morning that he gets squirted quite a bit for the AM feedings. I have been trying not to pump so I don't stay engorged. Yup, I know. Too much information.

Time for me to get to bed. I need to try to get to bed earlier for Heaven's sake!

He's Home

Scott got home last night. I survived since Sunday being a single mom of 3 boys under 5!!! You know, I realize I COULD do it if I had to - but I wouldn't want to. There is no way I'd ever catch up with laundry!

I also realize that having a baby that is just a couple of weeks old isn't the easiest thing to do on your own when you have 2 other children who are fairly young yet themselves.

I may have to return to work in just a couple short weeks. Our finances are just not looking good. I was off for 2 weeks prior to having Carter - so I've been off for 4 1/2 weeks already now. It's killing our checkbook. I was so hoping to be able to be off for longer. Oh well. I must do what I must do. I can start out by taking the 4 hour shifts at Urgent Care. They'll be from 4 PM til 8PM - so Scott will be able to be home. I'm not sending Carter to daycare until I absolutely have to.

I've also decided that I'm not bringing him to Well Baby checks with the MD. I bring him to the chiropractor & I can check his weight there. Since we're not vaccinating him & he is thriving, there is no reason to go to the MD. I know many people have differing opinions on this. And I don't want to start a huge debate on this blog - but this being my 3rd child. I've kind of got this figured out. The doctor was making me feel very inadequate last week. I don't see the need to subject myself to that kind of stress. And, they're always running late! It's a waste of my time & since I ensure his well being in many other ways - we're all good.

Speaking of the little man. . .he's got his days & nights mixed up! Unfortunately, this will take a bit to remedy. It happened with the other 2 as well. You know what they say. . .never wake a sleeping baby. But he is so cute:) I just adore him. I want to cherish every moment.

Spencer & Parker are having some adjustment issues I think. They love him dearly - that's good. They just get a little bent out of shape that Mom's attention is not completely on them.

Speaking of the other 2 - they're now home. I need to run to the post office. Good! I can go by myself!

Talk to you later.

Something New!

I don't know if it was sleep deprivation or just being goofy - but I started something new. Check out this site: http://www.stuffafriend.com/shop.htm?jennifer5 I decided to sign up for Stuff A Friend. This is very similar to Build a Bear if you have ever heard of that.

Should be interesting. I'm still a Pampered Chef - and I don't intend to stop that. I am open to other direct sales things as well. Stuff A Friend only allows one consultant per town so I thought I'd check it out before someone else in my town beat me to it. I can allow others if I want - but I like to be in the driver's seat:)

Maybe it will allow me to stay off of work a little longer. Probably not - because I already should go back. That's a bummer for me as Carter is only 2.5 weeks old. We just really need my income.

Ok, Scott is home now. Time to get at some of that laundry that needs folding so I can find my bedroom!

Sleep? What's that?

Last night was hell. Little man decided that I wouldn't get to sleep last night - like at all. This is the part about being the food source that is incredibly difficult. I'm temptrd to do the pumping only thing - but that is actually more inconvenient for me during the day. I have the milk all ready as is & no need for bottles!

So anyway - I'm sure I ate something that didn't agree with him. He has never fussed that much! I need to be a good girl from here on out to keep me & him feeling good.

Not likely that I'll be attending Scott's cousin's wedding tonight. Scott can go with the 2 older ones. I'm sure there will be some disappointment from that on behalf of my in laws - but you can't please everyone. Besides, I think they can understand not coming 12 days after giving birth. Of course, Scott thinks I should be able to do it. I'm just thinking that it's not worth the stress.

Okey dokey - time for ME to eat.

By the way - STILL unable to figure out how to get pics on here!!!!

Trying the picture thing

I hope these show up! My little men holding the newest member of our family:) Priceless!

11 DAYS already!

Wow! Carter is 11 days old already! What a blur. He's doing great. I'm still adjusting to the sleep deprivation, breast engorgement & soreness & being the Mom of 3 boys. While it's the biggest joy in my life, it's also one of the biggest challenges right now. We're not exactly financially set right now & being unable to produce much income is quite a stressor for me. I don't want to wish the time away at all. This is our last baby so I really want to enjoy it to the fullest.

The 2 older boys are at daycare today. Yesterday was so challenging as it was raining so they were stuck in the house all day for the most part. Spencer is having some adjustment issues I think. He has been touchy over the past week. I'm sure it's because of all of these transitions. They are so sensitive to these things at these ages. I try to spend special time with all of the boys, but of course, most of my time is needed with Carter. I try to incorporate the older boys' help whenever possible to make them feel part of this. Sometimes that works great.

Scott is also preparing to be gone for a few days for work. I know the boys are anxious about that. I am as well. While I have help if needed, I don't like to call on people for it all that much. I know I should. I guess part of it is that I don't really want to be on their schedules. You know how that is when you ask for help but really would like it between this time & this time?? Then when the person you ask is only available for another time frame you kind of get thrown off anyway??? I hate to inconvenience someone else, however, if I need the help during a certain time that's when I need it. OK, enough whining.

I knew that energy spurt I got earlier this week wouldn't last long! Not to mention, we're running WAY low on food here. I just need to rest - and during the time the older boys are at daycare, I don't exactly want to run to get groceries. If I do an errand during this time I get no rest at all. Then when I pick them up it's go time again. Scott has to work until at least 6 PM tonight & then he returns for 7 AM tomorrow. This next week will prove to be my most challenging.

I have so many more thoughts going through my brain right now. But I should really go nap!

HE'S HERE!!!

Carter Alan Borley was born on Monday, September 12th at 4:32 PM. He came fast & furious after 4 hours of labor with only 10 minutes of pushing (wow!).

He weighed 8 pounds, 4 ounces. Measured 20 1/2 with head at 34 - of course, he figured that wasn't quite wide enough & decided to come out with his hand on his forehead! The thinker.

He is a good baby. Spencer & Parker are very proud big brothers. I hope I figure out how to add pics to this blog soon so that I can share how cute they all are.

Time for me to sleep. He'll be hungry again before long.

Jen 

Happy Anniversary Mom & Dad

My parents have been married for - oh my gosh, I forgot how many years - today! I'm thinking it's 39 years. I think if it were 40 they'd be having some sort of celebration - so it must be 39.

Mom thinks it would be a good day for this little man to be born. I told her I'd try to accomodate but couldn't make any promises. Considering it's only 2:05 AM - I've got time.

Why am I awake? Hmm. . .must be my body's way of preparing me for what's ahead with late night feedings. I had to feed myself, of course:) There are 2 little men & one big man sleeping in my bed right now. . .oh, and the dog. Can't forget her. It was getting a bit crowded so I'll have to wake Scott to relocate the 2 little men when I go in there.

I feel like creating somemore scrappy things. I took part in a Friday Night Challenge for one of my scrappy groups tonight. I haven't done that in a while. It felt great & now I can't turn off the creative flow. That is a good thing - and a bad thing. Good because it's so darn fun & it's about time I get some creativity going. Bad because now it's always on my mind. Can't say it's the only thing on my mind because we all know what is on my mind right now!!!

GO TOWARDS THE LIGHT! I am so excited to meet this little man! Anytime now really is just fine & good. I've simmered down on cutting the lawn. I did use the riding lawn mower yesterday on our lawn. I'm a bit uncoordinated with that thing & ended up hitting a couple things:( Oops! Nothing too major though. The bumpy ride didn't move things along at all:( I'm thinking in the morning I might have to go cut the lawn at the rental again with the push mower. It can't hurt!

Well, I suppose I should try to get some sleep. Or, I might have to spend some time creating:)

A Bit less anxiety

Had my doctor appt today. Still pretty much the same. I'm a good 2 cm now instead of 1-2cm. Forgot to ask if I'm any more effaced. But I go in Monday morning to get things rolling so I'm much more relaxed than I have been. I'm also much more comfortable today. I think maybe the weather has something to do with that. Seriously, we got a good rain yesterday & I'm sure the atmospheric pressure has something to do with it. I know, I can be kind of strange.

I hope to get some things done this weekend. We have our block party on Sunday. My parents' anniversary is Saturday. Mom thinks I should have this little man on Saturday. I'm for it if it happens. We'll see!

I hope to be able to figure out how to add pics to this blog soon. I have pics of me mowing our neighbor's lawn the other day. Not the most attractive pics of me. . .but oh well!

Okey dokey. Almost time to pick up the boys.

Is it Happening?

OK, so now I have had what I thought was real labor start & stop yet again! I didn't go in this time. . .but I was close to heading to the hospital. 4 minutes apart lasting at least 1 minute each for about 30 minutes. Then when I finally decide to get someone over here to watch the boys & my dh is on the way home. . .they stop! AAAAHHHHHH!

So now I wait yet again!

This little man will have QUITE the story told in his scrapbook!

We'll see what happens tonight!

Still here - STILL pregnant

I talked to the little one this morning. I told him that we can't wait to meet him & would really like it if he would come on out today. With all of the commotion in our lives lately I can't blame him for wanting to stay inside. Between taking care of the rental & the catastrophe that our last tenant left & the boys going through exceptionally whiney times - add onto that the disaster happening in our country in the South - he's probably scared.

Yesterday was pretty uneventful contractions wise - not so the night before. I was awake most of the night with contractions 4 to 5 minutes apart but they only lasted 30 seconds. This went on for several hours. I was eventually able to sleep but could still feel them.

Then in the morning, they subsided. Glad we didn't go rushing to the hospital.

Today the plan is to get the laundry put away - as we have tons to do - & then get the rest of the stuff done at the rental. I guess Scott's parents might take the boys to their campground to play. We're so hoping to get things rolling with this little guy.

I'll keep you all updated as things progress (because they WILL progress).

It's Go time ANYTIME Now

Tell that to my cervix! It is not budging! I keep saying to this little man, "Go toward the light!" He isn't cooperating - OR, he's trying, but the door is still kind of bolted.

Scott came home from work to bring me to the doctor - who's office is right in the hospital. Glad I didn't go to Labor & Delivery. Don't need any unneccesary bills right now. Dr. Winburn was sympathetic - saying I was most likely in Latent Labor & it could progress at any time or linger for a couple weeks. ACK! No way Jose' - NOT going to linger long. She gave me methods of stimulating oxytocin - I won't go into too much detail here but a big one involves Scott.

So I am at home once again. .. . . .waiting. . . .considering hiring out my services to mow the neighborhood's lawns. Heck, I think I can come up with something else now. My floors should probably get scrubbed. The little guys are still gone - my neighbor picked them up from daycare & took them on a bike ride. They're not home yet so we're here alone. Might need to work on one of those methods:)

My mother was so sure I was in labor. I guess deep down I knew it wouldn't be the real thing yet. As much as I want it to be - I figured there has to be much stronger pain involved before it's real. Boy is he working on my pelvis though! Not kidding, I think he's springing off of it!

Oh, thought I'd share this: I finished mowing the backyard this morning - and Scott was going to get me on the camcorder mowing the lawn as part of this little man's first tape - well, he put the tape in & the thing jammed up. So now we don't have a useable camcorder!!! We stopped at Best Buy - where we bought it 4 years ago in June - & they charge $55 just to send it out!! Of course, the manufacturer's warantee expired in JUNE! I swear they put timers on these things to self destruct as soon as the warantee expires. It's a conspiracy.

I must go work on something. Sitting is driving me crazier!

More Mowing

We have a fairly large yard - I think it's close to 3/4 acres. We do have a riding mower - however, I didn't use that one. I used the push mower. I did the complete front yard & got about half way done with the back - then the mower ran out of gas. So I came inside & sent an email to Scott. Of course, he offered up encouragement & then noted there is more gas in the garage!

It's almost 5PM so I figure that I can rest a bit & then maybe do some house work - the more strenuous type like scrub the floor & bring the laundry up. This baby has to come out sooner or later, right?

Maybe I should consider feeding the kids. They might need some nourishment.

Keep sending those vibes!

May as well wait & make Mom happy

My mother so much wants me to wait until tomorrow to have this bouncing baby boy. Still not making any promises ... but may as well. Besides, the sapphire is so pretty.

He wants out. I think he knows I just wrote that - he's now pressing down HARD on my cervix. He is so ready.

I slept last night! Well, I was up at midnight until about 1 AM. Baby was hungry. May as well get used to that. I'm going to breast feed & every couple hours is the norm at first.

Hey, I only need to wait until midnight tonight to have him. Then it's September!

Parker just decided to do some "home improvement" to the front screen door. Evidentally he thought striking a stick to the screen to taunt his big brother was a good idea. We now have several holes in our screen. This does NOT make me happy. Oh just keep it up little boys. Mom will go into labor due to stress!!!

We're heading South to Wrightstown this afternoon. I need to get them out of the house to keep my sanity. Parker, who is 3 & has been potty trained for over a year now, has decided to have 3 accidents today already!!!! I just made him put on a pull up, which he hates doing during the day. He was warned. I see nothing wrong with a little making my child feel a little guilty for doing something he does have control over. He just was out & out too lazy to stop playing to go use the toilet. And he knew it. I know, I'm going right to hell.

We're off! Hopefully I will have a baby update later or for sure by tomorrow!! Keep sending those vibes:)